I don't like these two feelings...I despise them...hate them...but it's just another way that human reacts towards certain things. Where can I turn for comfort? Where can I look for peace? Where can I find love? One common thing that people who are saved and not saved share is the way both feel. One thing that separates them is the way they react to that feeling. I'm just glad I have someone who I can pour out my stress, cry, joy, and everything that bothers me in this life. I love you my Father, Savior, Lord.

I finally got my car back, so happy!!! I tried to keep myself a bit busy since I got my car back. Went to Barnes & Noble to buy some more book, (got done reading the book I bought less than a week ago) met up with john and jessie...and jessie gave me something special, hehehe. something strange is happening to me...I actually like reading now...I mean like, I don't get sick of reading after reading for like an hour or so. I haven't played XBOX for two days, (well..my mom & sister are busy watching korean videos) instead, I've been reading most of my spare time. Currently reading "Message in a bottle" which I like it so far. After that, I'm gonna start reading "The case for Christ". I feel like I'm going to read a lot of books over this summer. More visits to Barnes & Noble also. (not to just chat around with ppl, but to buy more books) Maybe i'm growing up now...instead of just trying to waste my time by lying around in the bed doing nothing and stare at the computer screen, I feel more like reading. By the way John...I'm sure u gonna ACE~ ur final tmr...cuz u got to study a lot with JESSIE for LONG LONG time~....right? (wink wink) hahaha..I'm just playing. Oh, one more thing, ur church really has some weird ppl. Riimu, I'll show it to u later what I got from jessie. Patience, patience, patience...

Last weekend of High school...I didn't think I would have 2 much fun...but turns out I had good time overall. I didn't feel so good on friday...because of the car situation, but next day, I got to hang out with people from emmanuel. I was soooo happy to see eun and eunice! Eunice and I got to talk a lot, and like always, I really enjoy her company. She visited my home after going eat at red robin, which was so cool. I'm glad she's coming to my graduation. she said my room is so neat...haha, I guess it is. (ok, ok...I cleaned it before she came) but oh, yeah~ joyce came over tonite too...to do CWI project. Funny thing is...Joyce and eunice, they both said something about pictures I had on my desk. They said it looks cute. (probably talking about the girl next to me...) yea, yea...I know I know...I'm ruining the picture...hehe. it's ok, she makes it up. So~ I had interesting weekend...I had really good time reading my book, (I'm halfway done!! it's so addicting!!) playing Xbox with eddy, (eddy!!! u are going down next time!! for sho!!!) and just lying around my bed thinking how life is like snowboarding down the mountain..it looks long...risky and full of surprises. Though the life is actually short...ohhhh~ I wanna go snowboarding now!!! AHHH!!! SNOWBOARDING!!! JOHN!!! LET'S GO S-N-O-W-B-O-A-R-D-I-N-G!!!!! Yeah...and please stop hitting on girls when you're on the lift...I'm sick of explaining every single girl you hit on that you're in a need of help. LOL!!! HAHAHAHA, that was the funniest thing I said today!! u know I'm just playin', right? u know we like bros., but I really hope those girls won't bother u anymore next time we go Stevens...man...they were stuck on to you like a glue!